Friday, January 23, 2009

Relentless Authenticity 2

Okay were back. Is it enough to tell the truth? No I aspire to showing up. A friend suggested recently while we were at the Fire Ballet that it might have some elements of Rock Horror. My response, on no, the Crucible is much to serious, too dark to dabble is pop culture. FAIL

The whole ballet was a combination of Rocky Horror, Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Thriller. And I loved it. But where did my batting away of her deduction come from. My defensiveness. I continue to want to be right, know more and be the "in kid".

So my authenticity shows up when I am leading from my heart and not my defenseness. My joyful spirit is most apparent when I am not afraid or showoffy....

Somehow I suspect this conversation will keep returning to fear. Fear of being fired, fear of not being loved, fear of being my crazy mother or father, fear of just being the old fat lady.

What are you afraid of?
Logo: Markey Scheuer Thank You
It represents my foibles more tha an actual portrait.


Mark said...

Affinity, so many times your posts have struck a chord with me ... thank you

Ali Baba said...

I want to see that ballet even more now!

I also have a too-strong desire to want to be right. Tough, sometimes, to hold back on the 'knowitall'ness, and the "I told you so"s, but an important thing to try to remember, especially with loved ones. ;o

I'm afraid of failure, but also of success so great that life would be radically changed, or privacy lost.